OOTD ; Denim, Zara and Rambling

I got a small reminder this evening about dreaming big and looking back I can't seem to pinpoint when I stopped.

Reality definitely gets in the way, and money and y'know all those things I said would never matter and yet somehow you need them to live and to pay off debts and things don't seem to come easy and everyone tells you to look at how much you've achieved but all I can focus on is that I didnt think this was how it would turn out and I KNOW im only 24 and I KNOW I have achieved a lot and things take time and then I BREATHE.

Its like this,since I finished Uni I'll be honest life for me has felt hard, at times depressing and my days at some points are filled with sitting in my own head and not being able to see a way out. Its hard to be a 'creator' when you feel like that and its hard to objectively or passionately plan what you want to do or what you want to achieve, when all I've wanted to do is get through this week and then the next. I've hit a crossroads where I feel I'm choosing where I'm taking my life, I'm not saying its the right path but its different and right now I need difference and happiness and a 9-5 job that lets me be those and then maybe I can start to remember what I wanted and also what I want now.

Although I never want reality to get in the way and believe me more than anyone (and if you know me you'll know this) I hate saying this but in our generation EVERYONE wants to be someone, and how amazing is that? We all have the opportunity for greatness. BUT on the flip side, we have so many people competing, the competition can feel so hard and when your getting nowhere it can feel so much easier to give up a little.

There is no point to this blog post but the inner ramblings of an overthinker and a wannabe overachiever who is 24 (nearly 25), with a horrible cold in July (like what), watching gilmore girls and resolving to remember why I love wearing pink eyeshadow and metallic skirts. PLUS I LOVE THE ZARA JACKET IM WEARING.

OOTD ; Friends, Fur and Septum Rings

Scarf : Topshop | Bag: Accessorize | Septum Ring: Depop

I am currently sat at home from work feeling poorly for the third day in the row, rewatching pretty little liars and thought what better time to write about this weekend ^.^

Some of my favourite people came and visited me and my new house this weekend, we ate, we drank, we went to a tragic nightclub (we genuinely had to let ourselves in and were the only ones on the dance floor for about 2 hours.. but as Abby said our dance moves were the best!) and I showed them around where I'm from! It was so nice to have them over and how happily we slot back into each others lives- after living together in our final year (Angie I lived with for two years!) and being best friends for a few years longer, when you leave uni you start to wonder who you'll keep in touch with and how your lives and friendships will intertwine and in a sense survive over the following years.

The plan for Saturday was to shop in Leicester as thats the closest city to me, and I knew where I'm from probably (in the winter weather) had about a days worth of entertainment that we could have on the Sunday! In reality shopping turned into coffee and then pizza and then cocktails as we realised how poor we still are in these months following graduation and how drinks and food and catching up was worth more to us and our money (funny.. considering we're fashion students!). After cocktails at Turtle Bay (Mai Tais are the best!) we got the train back to mine, where we listened to Taylor Swift, Twenty One Pilots, Craig David (I am supporting him for 2016 comeback! ;)), James Bay and many more whilst drinking Sex on the Beach, getting ready, singing, talking and taking photos! I took this chance to wear my new septum ring that i'd ordered and I literally love it, I don't think I can get away with wearing it everyday because after a few hours it gets annoying and does hurt, but for a night or evening out I love it- I'm sure as time goes on I'll wear it all the time to be honest! After a fun night out where I live, where we stumbled across bars, shouted Nigel Thornberry at a poor unsuspecting man and invited ourselves into a derelict club and created our own playlist for the DJ, we went to sleep!

On Sunday Chase played taxi driver and we showed them where Chase is from, where I'm from and we went to Rutland Water, where I can't wait till summer to take them back to so we can go rowing ^.^ I managed to get some photos of my new fur scarf that feels very Fendi inspired, but was heavily reduced in the Topshop sale! And this awesome bag Angie got me for Xmas, which I believe is from Accessorize and is literally me in a box bag (with Tassels ontop!)

It was so nice to see friends again and to relax and have fun, sometimes I feel quite lonely where me and Chase live, as I'm still learning to drive, I commute such a long way that evenings feel only good for sleeping and watching four in a bed (my latest 4od craze) and moving back you realise how many people have moved on. I'm determined though to push myself to make a big effort in 2016 both in my professional and personal life, I want to achieve great things but more importantly I want to make sure I share these moments with the best people I know ^.^

OOTD ; Typical Freaks, Dogs and Flowers

Sweatshirt: Typical Freaks | Headband: Asos | Lipstick: Mac Matte Royale

 I got this sweatshirt from a brand called 'Typical Freaks', from their depop account (ilovedepop) where they basically sell loads of one off 'sample sale' garments, I was lucky enough to get a super soft plush sweatshirt from my sisters from this brand as well for christmas and whilst not cheap, their depop sample sale stuff is a hella lot cheaper than there final collections! Theres a plastic printed raincoat/dress I'd LOVE to own but unfortunately until I fulfil my 2016 dream of being rich and successful I will just have to dream ^.^ I first found out about this brand when I was walking around Hyper Japan with Louise, my very talented trend forecaster friend / boss, she pointed them out to me and said I should try and get work with them! Although I didn't pluck up the courage to ask about an internship, I did rifle through their rack and fall in love with their bold colourful hand printed garments that pretty much sum up my own personal design work. I love finding a brand that have modern concepts. are heavily stylised with print and colour and feel a little outrageous, in 2016 I definitely want to try and find more brands like them ^.^ 

(I'm really starting to regret my shaved head when I look at photos like the above ^^^^ WHYDOESMYFRINGELOOKSOWEIRD)

OOTD ; Lazy Oaf, Bugs Bunny + Mickey Mouse

Dress: Lazy Oaf | Cardigan: Vintage | Shoes: Vans Disney | Socks + Headband : Topshop | Bag: HyperJapan | Pompom: Newlook

Life has been quite busy lately, which has helped me occupy my time and keep from dwelling on the past + the future, which I tend to do ALOT lately! I got this dress from the Lazy Oaf sale and I LOVE it, its got a bugs bunny tuxedo print all over it and  (although I hate to say this) the quality isn't the BEST in the world, the print is and for me illustrations/print/colour are the key things I want out of my clothes and that's why Lazy Oaf is pretty much me all over and will always be worth me paying for it ^.^ I've got an interview on Monday which I'm excited about + I'm doing some freelance trend work at the moment which makes me happy, there's nothing I love more than being creative and now everyone's going back to University again I'm starting to realise how much I miss drawing + making + pattern cutting.