OOTD ; Feminism and Blue Lipstick

Feminism Top : H&M | Skirt : Asos | Vans : Disney Vans | Beanie : Gemma Ryans ;)

I don't even remember the last time I took some time to write on this little corner of the internet, but I know its been quite awhile. The past few months have been like a whirlwind of emotions, memories and achievements; me and my boyfriend now have a little two bedroom house and I'm an accessories designer, designing bags + purses which is CRAZY.

 I left University in June scared out of my mind, staying at my boyfriends parents and working at our local petrol station, and as much as I dreaded being in that situation it gave me some time to breathe (inbetween searching and applying for jobs everysingleday on indeed!) and I'm only now over this Christmas break just starting to come up for air and starting to plan where I'm going to next both personally and professionally. I still want for more creativity and more freedom within that and I want to start carving out a place for myself within fashion, I want to learn as much as I can as an accessories designer and I want to draw more, I want to illustrate and I want to explore trend further in a freelance/independent capacity. I feel theres so many corners of this creative industry I enjoy and this year I need to start properly trying to accomplish something for myself and I want to find where I fit in ^.^

Step Foward; OOTD

Chameleon Top : Monki
Skirt : Topshop
'Step Forward' Socks : Monki
Looney Tunes Beanie : Lazy Oaf
Orange &  Pink Boots: Cat

Today is one of those days where choosing an outfit/leaving the house/life feels a bit frantic and I'm not quite sure where to place my thoughts. Yesterday I had an appointment to sort out my CV and today was one to go over my portfolio and all the work that I still need to do to it.

 Since getting into 2015 I feel scared. I feel like there's alot of expectations being forced upon me by myself and other people around me. 

In my head theres a mounting pressure building to be the one that goes somewhere, that succeeds, that gets lucky and is talented and can be someone that matters and makes a mark. 

Today that feels scary.

 Place on top of that the worry of where I'll be in June;

 Will I have a job? Where will I call home? Will all this hard work pay off?

All these thoughts and worry's are scary and today I'd rather bury my head in my duvet and watch films and put my portfolio on hold and pretend everything's going to be okay, because in reality it is. I wear my socks to remind myself to keep on stepping forward.