Shopping, Pancakes and Black Cats!

This weekend has been awesome. Its been nice to leave the stress of pattern cutting, toiling and sketchbook dilemnas behind me and go back home to see my sister Gemma, her boyfriend John and their cute crazy cat Jasmine! 

Me and Gemma explored a nearby city, making the best purchase so far this year: white dungarees for £14.99 (blog post to follow ASAP!), we made pancakes, played charades, watched Pride & Prejudice and made cornflake cakes! I finished off the visit seeing my favourite person ever Luke Chase! 

Its nice to get away and get refreshed before starting another week! This week we have to have 3 outfits toiled for our crits (I barely have 1...) and I need to finalise my print which I'm super excited about. Pattern cutting I suck at but print design I love! Its exciting to start to see everything V E R Y S L O W L Y start to come together ^.^ 

Step Foward; OOTD

Chameleon Top : Monki
Skirt : Topshop
'Step Forward' Socks : Monki
Looney Tunes Beanie : Lazy Oaf
Orange &  Pink Boots: Cat

Today is one of those days where choosing an outfit/leaving the house/life feels a bit frantic and I'm not quite sure where to place my thoughts. Yesterday I had an appointment to sort out my CV and today was one to go over my portfolio and all the work that I still need to do to it.

 Since getting into 2015 I feel scared. I feel like there's alot of expectations being forced upon me by myself and other people around me. 

In my head theres a mounting pressure building to be the one that goes somewhere, that succeeds, that gets lucky and is talented and can be someone that matters and makes a mark. 

Today that feels scary.

 Place on top of that the worry of where I'll be in June;

 Will I have a job? Where will I call home? Will all this hard work pay off?

All these thoughts and worry's are scary and today I'd rather bury my head in my duvet and watch films and put my portfolio on hold and pretend everything's going to be okay, because in reality it is. I wear my socks to remind myself to keep on stepping forward.