Fashion Fashion Fashion

All Work My Own.

I'm sat in my room with one week till my final major hand in (6 days to be more precise. I am a constant calender/clock watcher right now) and I have no motivation to sit on Illustrator or Illustrate with the abundance of promarkers strewn across my bed. I have an interview on Wednesday for an accessories company based back home and a list as long as my long long arms of garments to be made next week and its just too much. I'm at the stage where I've cared about everything so much for so long that I dont love it anymore I just want to be rid of it and then maybe in a month (if) when it goes down those catwalks I can fall back in love with my HOURS and HOURS of hard work and be proud of what I've achieved.
I'd quite like to just sit and watch Pretty Little Liars all day every day and not worry about invisible zips, flatlockers and portfolios.

Paris ; Fashion and Fabric

Sacre Coeur View (Photo Credit: Abagailemily)

Pierre Balmain Exhibition

Last week I went to Paris! As part of my Fashion Degree when we get to our 'FMP' we go over to Paris to a little fabric area near the Sacre Coeur and armed with our moodboards and silhouette ideas we enter into two days of fabric frenzy. I came away with what my tutor described as 'so disgusting their fabulous' (uhh.. thanks?) My colour palette was yellows/pinks/oranges with accents of black and green; to begin with I didnt want the colour to be overwhelming but then I looked at myself and realised my collection is going to be the brightest rainbow you've ever seen walk down a runway!

Buying fabric can to be honest be overwhelming. After being prewarned by our tutors we could spend anywhere up to two thousand pounds on our fabric I opted to cover my eyes and enter my pin number for every transaction and had moments of delirium when I bought 7 metres.. YES.. 7 metres.. of glitter plastic.

Three full days in Paris and two ten hour coach trips destroyed me. I can only liken the end result of walking off that coach at the end and hauling 64 metres of fabric up steps as on a par with the last walk of Leeds Fest. I have therefore spent the past four days (including valentines day :( ) horribly ill, I have drank atleast fifty litres of orange juice and struggled to eat anything and at the moment im cleaning my room in stages as ive got that pathetic zero energy, shaking everytime i do anything kind of flu. 

I am however excited for the coming months, buying fabric has really motivated me and made me feel excited again for the possibiltiys, sometimes working in a sketchbook I get so caught up in 'Art' that I struggle to see it in terms of fashion. Its scary to think in 3 months I should have a 6 piece collection ^.^

'You Are The Constellations'

My Coat: Missguided
Hat: Primark (Chases!)
Eyeshadow: Naked Palette
Bindi: Ebay
Gemmas hat: Lazy Oaf
Shoes : Vans

 Over the past few days its been nice to escape back home and take some time to see familiar faces and feel that kind of simple happiness I find easiest to find when here.
Me and my sister Gemma went up to Rutland Water today and took some photos, it was nice to be able to experiment more with my camera as since getting it for Christmas I've felt limited in taking a variety of photos and playing around with all the settings. Although I didn't really do much else with it today it was still nice to walk around with it and pretend I was some kind of awesome photographer..
I'm going back to Coventry tomorrow for a week full of exhibitions/sketchbooks and portfolios and after coming home I feel happy to go back; its always nice to escape for a little bit but I think I'll forever be someone who likes to keep moving forward and I'm excited for London on Tuesday with Angie ^.^

Step Foward; OOTD

Chameleon Top : Monki
Skirt : Topshop
'Step Forward' Socks : Monki
Looney Tunes Beanie : Lazy Oaf
Orange &  Pink Boots: Cat

Today is one of those days where choosing an outfit/leaving the house/life feels a bit frantic and I'm not quite sure where to place my thoughts. Yesterday I had an appointment to sort out my CV and today was one to go over my portfolio and all the work that I still need to do to it.

 Since getting into 2015 I feel scared. I feel like there's alot of expectations being forced upon me by myself and other people around me. 

In my head theres a mounting pressure building to be the one that goes somewhere, that succeeds, that gets lucky and is talented and can be someone that matters and makes a mark. 

Today that feels scary.

 Place on top of that the worry of where I'll be in June;

 Will I have a job? Where will I call home? Will all this hard work pay off?

All these thoughts and worry's are scary and today I'd rather bury my head in my duvet and watch films and put my portfolio on hold and pretend everything's going to be okay, because in reality it is. I wear my socks to remind myself to keep on stepping forward.

Plastic and Fur ; OOTD

Fur Coat: Misguided
Striped Top: Topshop
Plastic Skirt: Monki
Floral Crown: Asos
Choker: Primark
Scarf: Topshop
Garfield Bag: Lazy Oaf
Shoes: Doc Martens

Today was my first 'day' in Uni since we handed in last term and my first proper day out of my house since being ill, fresh air has never felt so good! I'm feeling really excited about this term after having a meeting with my tutor today to discuss where I'm going to be taking my FMP (Final Major Project) and have a few trips booked to London in the next few weeks to research women s rights/equality/suffrage and Victorian fashion. 

I've been sat on Wikipedia all day (such a reliable source.. I got books out of the library aswell!) and I feel like a growing fountain of knowledge regarding Women's Suffrage, it's so interesting/disgusting how little to no rights women had preceding the 20th Century and makes me feel privileged to be able to be who I am today.

I got my fur jacket above ^^^ in the sale for misguided and I am in love with it, I feel like a huge teddy bear and keep stroking my arms when walking down the street ^.^

Being Happy.

Two days into my design placement and i'm now in bed with a cold/flu; some weeks really do not go to plan..
I uploaded all the photos I took over Christmas onto my computer and it made me feel slightly homesick, I always find getting back into the routine of 'uni life' hard, especially the part of living away from the people and places I love, but for these final 6 months of Uni I really feel determined to push myself to enjoy all the things that this time next year I'll be missing.
I find myself focusing a lot on the places I'd rather be, the people I wish I could see and the lives that I can't help but be envious of whether their my friends or internet celebrities.. some days its easy to want to emmerse yourself in anyone's life but your own.
I hadn't made any new years resolutions so far for this year (except to learn all the words to Paul Simon- You can call me Al.) But from my (sick)bed I want to try and make 2015 a year of appreciating everything and everyone I do have and making more of an effort with them. Whether that mean's prying myself away from netflix so I talk to my friends or finding the positives in my life rather than the negatives, I really just want to see my world as something that's just as good as everyone else's, if not better because its mine and I have so many amazing things in it.

The Calm Before The Storm ; OOTD

Yellow top: Topshop 

Silver Skirt: River Island

Orange Coat: Zara

Cruella De Vil Fur: H&M

Shoes: Topshop

Doctors Bag: Zara

Writing a fashion blog is something I've been meaning to do for what feels like years now, but as 2015 has begun and I got the best camera EVER for Christmas this year, I feel inspired to play around with the automatic features (one day I'll learn manual focusing...) and take some photos of what I'm wearing during the week.

Today was an important day for me as I started a week long work placement in the design department of Tu for Sainsburys, I graduate from University this June and I'm trying my hardest to get as much experience in the fashion industry as possible, to try and find what I really love doing and what makes me happy, I'm not yet sure what that is but I'm trying to figure it out ^.^