OOTD ; Denim, Zara and Rambling

I got a small reminder this evening about dreaming big and looking back I can't seem to pinpoint when I stopped.

Reality definitely gets in the way, and money and y'know all those things I said would never matter and yet somehow you need them to live and to pay off debts and things don't seem to come easy and everyone tells you to look at how much you've achieved but all I can focus on is that I didnt think this was how it would turn out and I KNOW im only 24 and I KNOW I have achieved a lot and things take time and then I BREATHE.

Its like this,since I finished Uni I'll be honest life for me has felt hard, at times depressing and my days at some points are filled with sitting in my own head and not being able to see a way out. Its hard to be a 'creator' when you feel like that and its hard to objectively or passionately plan what you want to do or what you want to achieve, when all I've wanted to do is get through this week and then the next. I've hit a crossroads where I feel I'm choosing where I'm taking my life, I'm not saying its the right path but its different and right now I need difference and happiness and a 9-5 job that lets me be those and then maybe I can start to remember what I wanted and also what I want now.

Although I never want reality to get in the way and believe me more than anyone (and if you know me you'll know this) I hate saying this but in our generation EVERYONE wants to be someone, and how amazing is that? We all have the opportunity for greatness. BUT on the flip side, we have so many people competing, the competition can feel so hard and when your getting nowhere it can feel so much easier to give up a little.

There is no point to this blog post but the inner ramblings of an overthinker and a wannabe overachiever who is 24 (nearly 25), with a horrible cold in July (like what), watching gilmore girls and resolving to remember why I love wearing pink eyeshadow and metallic skirts. PLUS I LOVE THE ZARA JACKET IM WEARING.

OOTD ; Dungarees, Rainbows and Unicorns

Lol where we live is so sunday suburbia.
Jacket: Oxfam | Dungarees: Lazy Oaf | Socks: Primark | Vans Mickey Mouse | Bag: HOH
Sunglasses: ASOS | Phone Case: SkinnyDip

I can't quite remember the last time I sat down and began to write on this little platform, but a lot has happened, some good and some not so good; but I feel with the sun beginning to shine and having passed my driving test last week (F I N A L L Y), things are starting to look up and I feel like good things are just around the corner.
This last weekend I got the chance to see some of my favourite people and spent the Saturday and Sunday catching up with old friends and finding a new love in lazerquest with my best friend for her birthday (I forgot how competitive I was until I started shooting small kids with my gun..).
At the moment it feels like I spend my whole week looking forward to two days, when I try and fill the hours with everything and everyone I miss Monday-Friday. Honestly I feel like having spent until I was 24 years old in education, coming out of it and perhaps not being exactly happy with where I am has made me miss the freedom and dreams constantly working towards something gave me. I miss being able to quit the days when you didn't see the point in them and instead you'd sit and watch six series of your favourite show or sit in the sun with your friends. It feels hard, and these past months when quite a lot has felt wrong and gone wrong all I want to do is quit the week and spend my life in the weekends. But I'm going car shopping this weekend and have a fringe appointment tomorrow (this is a live saving appointment, the last hairdresser i went to FEATHERED my fringe, I have wanted to cut it all off all day) and I feel like everything is moving forwards, with me beginning to work towards my own personal deadlines and goals rather than those set by teachers.
I nearly threw out the Lazy Oaf dungarees Im wearing in these photos, the straps on the back are breaking and I'd chucked it in my charity shop pile, when Chases little face sad at me discarding his birthday present from a couple of years back (and I think he was all the more sad for how much it cost, not so much the sentiment..) made me feel bad and put it in back in my wardrobe! I do love it and it felt weird to wear something short again, I used to ALWAYS wear short short things and since i got older (lol I'm only 24.. but seriously) I hate short things. I also found this feather jacket again after losing it in the chaos of moving and its made me want to track down more crazy fur/feather/tassel jackets (the latter of which I have my eye on and in my saved list on ASOS!)

OOTD ; Jelly Shoes, Tutu's & Pink Hair

Jelly Shoes + Socks : Primark
Tutu Skirt : Lola Rose
Top : Topshop
Cardigan : New Look
Bugs Bunny Bag : H&M
Coat + Flowers : Zara
Phone Case (Designed by Me ^.^) : Claires

 I wasn't planning to come back home this weekend but after having my final catwalk show for my grad collection on Thursday night and staying up all night and going into work on Friday, by Saturday I was worn out and needed to go back relax and feel at home. I find it strange that no matter what I'm doing or what I'm achieving a small piece of me always wants to go back where theres countryside at every turn, it helps me to feel better and to want more from life, living in a city in student housing can sometimes feel suffocating, although with only 5 weeks left I know when its time to move out I'm going to be missing my freedom and shops on my doorstep.

Today I sat in the park, reading and looking a little out of place for the bumbling town of Oakham (although I feel I look a little eccentric most places I go !).

 I got these Jelly Sandals for my Catwalk Collection but after buying a size 6 I later found out my 6 models were all 7/8 (and one was even a 9 !). I was pretty happy to keep these and try out wearing them, I've been opposed to jelly shoes since they re-emerged and I have no idea why, there so me: glitter and plastic! I like wearing them with socks and skirts and I like these more than the flat jelly shoes as I feel like the 23 year old me is wearing the grown up version of the ones I wore when I was 5 at the seaside ^.^

OOTD ; Paisley Dungarees and Flower Crowns

Dungarees: Motel
Fur Coat: Vintage
Floral Crown: Zara

 Today was the last day of uni before easter, which means tomorrow I get to go back home and enjoy a few days of freedom and happiness and I'm so excited to fill my time with new memories ^.^
This past week has been difficult at Uni, its been full of frustration and tears and the feeling of neverending patterns, toiles and calico; I managed to finish this week on a positive note. After toiling shorts, fifties style pants and bralets about a thousand times I was left with something that has begun to resemble what I want to feature in my final collection, which after 6 weeks trying this is a major achievement it feels.
After finishing for the day it was nice this afternoon/evening to enjoy the sunshine and light nights outside with awesome company and (a not so awesome- sorry coventry..) city views ^.^

The Calm Before The Storm ; OOTD

Yellow top: Topshop 

Silver Skirt: River Island

Orange Coat: Zara

Cruella De Vil Fur: H&M

Shoes: Topshop

Doctors Bag: Zara

Writing a fashion blog is something I've been meaning to do for what feels like years now, but as 2015 has begun and I got the best camera EVER for Christmas this year, I feel inspired to play around with the automatic features (one day I'll learn manual focusing...) and take some photos of what I'm wearing during the week.

Today was an important day for me as I started a week long work placement in the design department of Tu for Sainsburys, I graduate from University this June and I'm trying my hardest to get as much experience in the fashion industry as possible, to try and find what I really love doing and what makes me happy, I'm not yet sure what that is but I'm trying to figure it out ^.^